beatyourheartout

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Awfully Inconceivable Failure by beatyourheartout, literature

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Awfully Inconceivable Failure

Do I love you? Do I even know you? Do I even want to know you? I'm so sick of you, right? The pain, it hurts... I think... You make everything I feel, feel like nothing and everything at the same time, like it's alive but then extinct; everything about us is so unclear. Do you even care how I feel? Do you realise what I've said is real? Do you even contemplate that I may be hurting; that every time I see you I remember how fucked up it is with you and me? The fact every freaking time I remember your smile, I smile and cry at the same time, and I feel like I don't deserve to live. I think you are beautiful, I think you're incredi

Invisible by beatyourheartout, literature

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Invisible

I listen to the rain I've tried pushing you away I'm sick of these stupid thoughts They linger, never fade I lay in the dark Analysing everything you've said Scared that you've figured it out I can't risk it all again Everytime I try to write You name covers my page Everytime I try to speak You're everything I say Stupid little pathetic rhymes Reinforcing my stupid pathetic feelings When really to you I'm invisible Your ignorance leaves me seething The thunder sends this shiver Through the whole of my body And once again I imagine That you are touching me My face, my arms Affectionate and loving Every single imperfect P

Again by beatyourheartout, literature

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Again

I watch my tear splatter The transparent droplet Burst onto my arm The arm you once touched This can't be happening again This can't be happening again My eyes are shutting again They're blocking out all the light I'm plummeting into darkness Drowning in the night This can't be happening again This can't be happening again The attacks are coming once more Waking in the night with no more breath It's hard to believe That all I worked for we never had This can't be happening again This can't be happening again

You by beatyourheartout, literature

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You

Windswept ashes blowing kisses He wants to draw me in I stay back waiting, scared of losing you And I can't mislead him This intimacy might satisfy me now But what about when I see YOU tomorrow? Little girl dreaming Of love, hugs and smiles Thought so much of you I've been waiting a while Temptation rising I only wanted someone So I could forget you Ignore and regret But I can't love this loneliness He promises so much more Values me for who I am But I feel like I'm betraying you Even though you won't try to understand He won't give up on me, so I take advantage of his feelings I can't loose my one promise of stability H

Skin on Skin by beatyourheartout, literature

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Skin on Skin

Skin on skin Senseless touch I want to feel you But it means too much I feel in ecstasy So high above Can't let you do this Take advantage of my love I want to do this I want to feel close I want you to feel the same But I can't give in Can't let you play me Can't take all the blame You tempt me Make me feel Like this loves of yours Is truly real But I know what You really want You want something from me Whether it hurts me or not Why are you so weak? Why are you avoiding the truth? Why don't you let the feelings come out? Let your feelings Come out of you I want to do this I want to feel close I want you to feel

Mental As Anything by beatyourheartout, literature

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Mental As Anything

The hurt Plays tricks on me Subsiding for a moment Then reappearing more painfully The crimson and suffering Has stained my clothes Your words and actions Were never your fault So who is to blame now For my dreadful demise It's no suprise I drowned in your lies It's too late To pretend to care The damage has been done You didn't want to be there Don't get angry, I know You've been left with the blame It's unfair isn't it? To be wrongly accused again So you've noticed I'm a little delicate Too bad to see I'm already affected You can never take back Those innocent mistakes They weren't meant to harm me And you, I coul

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How was she to know? by beatyourheartout, literature

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How was she to know?

She's sitting there with tears streaming down her face No idea of what was to become her fate How was she to know that one mistake Was all it was going to take? She's only a girl, a girl of 15 A girl who thought that nothing could go wrong But right through her, he had seen How was she to know? When she saw him she smiled He was nice and friendly and different to the rest She hadn't met a nice guy in a while But how was she to know? She's sitting there with tears streaming down her face No idea of what was to become her fate How was she to know that one mistake Was all it was going to take? He smiled and asked her delicately

I'm living for me by beatyourheartout, literature

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I'm living for me

I can't stop the way I feel It hurts me so much to suffer like this Why can't anyone help me? Do they care? No I don't think they do All they do is stare At my messed up face And my pasty skin While my heart beats faster A battle starts within Your eyes make me cry They make me angry Because they provoke my feelings Everything about you screws me in the head You make me feel like I need you I have never needed you Don't make me feel so… WORTHLESS I could do so much for you But feeling like this does nothing for me You don't deserve my love So I'm saying goodbye To you and the way I used to be Fuck you all I'm living

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Again by beatyourheartout, literature

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Artist // Literature

Australia
Deviant for 20 years
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Current Residence: Australia
Favourite genre of music: i like rock, most kinds :)
Favourite photographer: chaosten, chinateacup, eyecandyrace
Favourite style of art: Ummm, traditional art and lyrical, also scraps of any kind... they're good and random. Photography..
MP3 player of choice: gneh... can't afford one
Shell of choice: a shelly one
Wallpaper of choice: I always have someones deviation up with a black background.. it could be you!
Skin of choice: one that blends into stuff like a chameleon.. than i can finally escape from EVERYONE! w00t
Favourite cartoon character: Daria... yep im really original aren't I... Peter Griffins... he is a freaking champ!
Personal Quote: Just 'cause you feel it doesnt mean its there - There There, Radiohead

Favourite Visual Artist

shebadapuddytat, dholms, heavyrocker

Favourite Movies

Dickie Roberts, The In-Laws, Team America, The Butterfly Effect, Animal House, Ella Enchanted.. etc.

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Nightwish,Opeth,Little Birdy,Polyphonic Spree,Muse,APC,Tool,The Music,Deftones, Smashing Pumpkins..

Favourite Writers

Anyone that really puts passion into what they're doing :)

Favourite Games

Halo, No One Lives Forever!(PS2), GTA(Xbox), NFS Underground(XBox)

Favourite Gaming Platform

xbox ps2 pc.. i don't really play games on my pc though.

Tools of the Trade

PSP... Microsoft Word... Emotions... People... Digi Cam... My own pathetic but somewhat cool life :)

Other Interests

Music, photography(once i figure it all out :) )

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beatyourheartout

Jun 15, 2005

a wiki wiki

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I'm feeling pretty good at the moment.. Had the most awesome weekend ever.. went to youth which was mad, stayed at Lauras, went to work, went out for dinner for Laura's Birthday, had an emotional breakdown XD wooah! and then went home and worked in the morning... thennnn, I went to church, then went out for dinner with a whole heap of the youth, then went out for gelati and then stayed at Keira's house.. then in the morning at :O 7AM I went to Surfers Beach for a *surf* and then had a buffet breakfast and spent the day in the mountains, wine-tasting and the like... and feeding Llamas :D they were so beautiful... Wrote an awesome romantic sto

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beatyourheartout

Jun 7, 2005

Uncovered

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I have just uncovered a part of myself that I never knew existed and I just feel dead on the inside.. Like I had feelings that I never knew I had and I just feel lost... it's really crazy, and I am so damn confused... I thought that I was this really together person but seriously, I think I am so messed up on the inside... and I really have not that much to blame for it... argh.. whatever.. haha, it's funny how I am so vague (*sorry if thats the wrong word...) and yet I still expect that people know what I am talking about... Oh well... I am a funny one... P.S. I am a horrible person

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beatyourheartout

May 31, 2005

Free

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I am superb... haven't written any songs at all lately, and am planning on buying a new super dooper camera... and maybe dropping BCT and joining Art, well, my friends are trying to get me to anyway, and I would like to but I don't know.. it's all rather complicated... seeing as Business is my best subject and it would be pretty outrageous :) muhahahaha :meh: EVerything is working out fine and I am actually really clear about everything.. my friends are now all cool and my old friends who didn't want to be near me are now getting better which is awesome.. also, I have so moved on, no more moping anymore.. I am so much better than that anyway

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cody-adams

Mar 1, 2005

Thx for the fav and watch !

Trancenmetal

Jan 30, 2005

Thank you for the watch hun

thank you

ok. now you've gone and done it. you've exceeded your limit
on kindness.
your punishment?
my watchlist.

sorry. i'm a believer and practitioner of tough love.

beatyourheartout

Jan 16, 2005

hehe.. still waiting for that watch

lol j/k

dholms

Jan 4, 2005

hi. thanks so much for checking out and faving my latest attempt at watercolors, always danielle. i think i miss my inks though. watercolors
make me feel too much like an artist. yuck!
heh.

thanks again.
-d

ChaosTen

Jan 4, 2005

thank you