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Awfully Inconceivable Failure
Do I love you?
Do I even know you?
Do I even want to know you?
I'm so sick of you, right? The pain, it hurts... I think...
You make everything I feel, feel like nothing and everything at the same time,
like it's alive but then extinct;
everything about us is so unclear.
Do you even care how I feel?
Do you realise what I've said is real?
Do you even contemplate that I may be hurting; that every time I see you I remember how fucked up it is with you and me?
The fact every freaking time I remember your smile, I smile and cry at the same time, and I feel like I don't deserve to live.
I think you are beautiful, I think you're incredible and I'm sorry I can't be any better, can't live up to what you probably deserve... I wish this were a perfect world so you could accept all the love I have for you and you could believe everything I feel for you. I want you to.
I remember the last time I saw you smile, before you left the other day, and how I wish it were because of me.
But it wasn't, I don'
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Invisible
I listen to the rain
I've tried pushing you away
I'm sick of these stupid thoughts
They linger, never fade
I lay in the dark
Analysing everything you've said
Scared that you've figured it out
I can't risk it all again
Everytime I try to write
You name covers my page
Everytime I try to speak
You're everything I say
Stupid little pathetic rhymes
Reinforcing my stupid pathetic feelings
When really to you I'm invisible
Your ignorance leaves me seething
The thunder sends this shiver
Through the whole of my body
And once again I imagine
That you are touching me
My face, my arms
Affectionate and loving
Every single imperfect
Part of me
Everytime I try to write
You name covers my page
Everytime I try to speak
You're everything I say
Stupid little pathetic rhymes
Reinforcing my stupid pathetic feelings
When really to you I'm invisible
Your ignorance leaves me bleeding
I can't ever
Let you find out how I feel
You mean too much to me to risk it
And this friendship is what's real
It's my unfortuna
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Again
I watch my tear splatter
The transparent droplet
Burst onto my arm
The arm you once touched
This can't be happening again
This can't be happening again
My eyes are shutting again
They're blocking out all the light
I'm plummeting into darkness
Drowning in the night
This can't be happening again
This can't be happening again
The attacks are coming once more
Waking in the night with no more breath
It's hard to believe
That all I worked for we never had
This can't be happening again
This can't be happening again
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You
Windswept ashes blowing kisses
He wants to draw me in
I stay back waiting, scared of losing you
And I can't mislead him
This intimacy might satisfy me now
But what about when I see YOU tomorrow?
Little girl dreaming
Of love, hugs and smiles
Thought so much of you
I've been waiting a while
Temptation rising
I only wanted someone
So I could forget you
Ignore and regret
But I can't love this loneliness
He promises so much more
Values me for who I am
But I feel like I'm betraying you
Even though you won't try to understand
He won't give up on me, so I take advantage of his feelings
I can't loose my one promise of stability
He told me he loved me you know
But he thinks you are taking me away
All your corrupt words make me distant
I feel as if I have to analyse everything you say
Temptation rising
I only wanted someone
So I could forget you
Now he's breaking down
He can't love this loneliness
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Skin on Skin
Skin on skin
Senseless touch
I want to feel you
But it means too much
I feel in ecstasy
So high above
Can't let you do this
Take advantage of my love
I want to do this
I want to feel close
I want you to feel the same
But I can't give in
Can't let you play me
Can't take all the blame
You tempt me
Make me feel
Like this loves of yours
Is truly real
But I know what
You really want
You want something from me
Whether it hurts me or not
Why are you so weak?
Why are you avoiding the truth?
Why don't you let the feelings come out?
Let your feelings
Come out of you
I want to do this
I want to feel close
I want you to feel the same
But I can't give in
Can't let you play me
I can't take all the blame
Your eyes pierce me
See right through
Into my soul
Don't try to make me
Act so low
I'm more than nothing to you
I want to do this
I want to feel close
I want you to feel the same
But I can't give in
Can't let you play me
I can't take all the blame
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Mental As Anything
The hurt
Plays tricks on me
Subsiding for a moment
Then reappearing more painfully
The crimson and suffering
Has stained my clothes
Your words and actions
Were never your fault
So who is to blame now
For my dreadful demise
It's no suprise
I drowned in your lies
It's too late
To pretend to care
The damage has been done
You didn't want to be there
Don't get angry, I know
You've been left with the blame
It's unfair isn't it?
To be wrongly accused again
So you've noticed
I'm a little delicate
Too bad to see
I'm already affected
You can never take back
Those innocent mistakes
They weren't meant to harm me
And you, I could never hate
I'm too in awe
I respect you so much
It's a bit fucked
You were so out of touch
It's too late
To pretend to care
The damage has been done
You didn't want to be there
Don't get angry, I know
You've been left with the blame
It's unfair isn't it?
To be wrongly accused again
Don't cry
Don't ever be angry
I never want
To see you unhappy
I'm so sorry
I gave up everyth
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I don't get it
Why can you affect me?
Why can you own me?
Why am I nothing?
Nothing to you
Why don't you need me?
Why don't you see me?
Why am I grieving?
Grieving over you
Why can I break you?
Why can I manipulate you?
Why am I stuck here?
Stuck picking up the pieces
Why do I affect you?
Why do I own you?
Why am I laughing?
You're dropping all your pieces
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It's Ok
I know inside its over
Actually I don't think it ever began
It kind hurts, more it stings
Now that I finally understand
It's a recurring thought, a stupid dream
That we should be together
It's sad I know, pathetic somehow
But it's all right, I'm trying to forget you altogether
My heart still screams for your attention
But now I know it will never be
We're too different, yet too the same
I don't think we'll ever end happily
But it's ok, it's ok
I've had my cry, had my mourn
It's ok, it's ok now
I have no excuse to fall
It felt wrong before it began
You are too shallow
Too superficial to understand
That beauty isn't all for show
All I had to offer you
Was everything I am and long to be
It's not your fault you're immature
You'll grow up one day, honestly
But it's ok, it's so ok
We were never meant
To feel this way
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Material World
It sucks to live and not know why
It seems too easy to give up
To just die
A pointless existence, unrealistic goals
Why don't we just surrender?
Who cares at all?
Living, dreaming, feeling nothing
Why are we here?
Aren't we meant to do something?
Pushed by our friends, by everyone around
Why must we succeed?
In this material world
Forgetting all good
To climb up the ladder
Forgetting to care
To be successful, to matter
Why do we reach out for a Martyr,
A Saviour, a God?
Do we really matter?
What can be done to save us now?
If we were meant to be cared for
We wouldn't wonder how
Living, dreaming, feeling nothing
Why are we here?
Aren't we meant to do something?
Pushed by our friends, by everyone around
Why must we succeed?
In this material world
Forgetting what's real
To feel like we exist
Forgetting to wonder
To ignore all we've missed
So I reach for all I think I want
I try to be what they make me be
Living this life just seems so unjust
Why do we all seek to believe?
Why do we reach?
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Australia
Current Residence: Australia
Favourite genre of music: i like rock, most kinds :)
Favourite photographer: chaosten, chinateacup, eyecandyrace
Favourite style of art: Ummm, traditional art and lyrical, also scraps of any kind... they're good and random. Photography..
MP3 player of choice: gneh... can't afford one
Shell of choice: a shelly one
Wallpaper of choice: I always have someones deviation up with a black background.. it could be you!
Skin of choice: one that blends into stuff like a chameleon.. than i can finally escape from EVERYONE! w00t
Favourite cartoon character: Daria... yep im really original aren't I... Peter Griffins... he is a freaking champ!
Personal Quote: Just 'cause you feel it doesnt mean its there - There There, Radiohead
Interests
I'm feeling pretty good at the moment.. Had the most awesome weekend ever.. went to youth which was mad, stayed at Lauras, went to work, went out for dinner for Laura's Birthday, had an emotional breakdown XD wooah! and then went home and worked in the morning... thennnn, I went to church, then went out for dinner with a whole heap of the youth, then went out for gelati and then stayed at Keira's house.. then in the morning at :O 7AM I went to Surfers Beach for a *surf* and then had a buffet breakfast and spent the day in the mountains, wine-tasting and the like... and feeding Llamas :D they were so beautiful...

Wrote an awesome romantic story the other day, so cute.. my friends are digging it because we are like all hopeless romantics.. meh, lame but cool all the same...

I am developing feelings for someone maybe, well I'm really not sure, but I could possibly and it could be mutual, but then also complicated hehe, I think complicated is really just an excuse for unavoidable failure...

OH WELL
Over and out

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cody-adams Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2005  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thx for the fav and watch ! :hug:
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Trancenmetal Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2005
Thank you for the watch hun :)
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ChaosTen Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2005
thank you :aww:
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dholms Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2005  Hobbyist General Artist
ok. now you've gone and done it. you've exceeded your limit
on kindness.
your punishment?
my watchlist.

sorry. i'm a believer and practitioner of tough love.

;)
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beatyourheartout Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2005   Writer
hehe.. still waiting for that watch :slow: lol j/k
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dholms Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2005  Hobbyist General Artist
hi. thanks so much for checking out and faving my latest attempt at watercolors, always danielle. i think i miss my inks though. watercolors
make me feel too much like an artist. yuck!
heh.

thanks again.
-d
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ChaosTen Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2005
thank you :heart:
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deadreflection13 Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2004
thanks for the fav
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JamesBardolph Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2004
Thanks for the fav!
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